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annette fantine dominic ([personal profile] overannchiever) wrote2020-06-29 07:26 pm

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VOICE ▲ VIDEO ▲ TEXT ▲ ACTION

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PHONE BOOK
▐ SYLVIE
▐ FELIX
▐ DIMITRI
▐ DOROTHEA
▐ ☆ WATAROBOT ☆
▐ HILDA
▐ MERCIE


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[personal profile] pawper 2021-03-23 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Yes. No. Yes. Not like this. Not because she's worked herself around to thinking she needs it. Not as a way of papering over 6O's absence, of forcing herself to heal around it.

Dragging a hand through untidy, sleep-rumpled hair, Lys heaves a heavy sigh, already knowing better than to admit any of that. She was being too selfish already, and never mind what 6O herself would say if she was still here.]


yeah
i thought it might be fun
my house has a fireplace
and we could play cards or games while eating ice cream
stuff like that
but only if you want to
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-03-25 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
thanks, annette

[For being—sounding?—so enthusiastic about it, like spending time with Lys was something to look forward to. Not a chore, not an aggravation, but fun.]

extra blankets and pillows are always good
i have a lot but you're welcome to bring more
gotta make sure we're nice and cozy, right?

i was only thinking about you and me
but you can invite more people if you want


[One nanosecond after typing that, Lys wishes she hadn't. This wasn't something she'd planned with anyone else in mind. It'll be hard enough facing Annette and Annette alone like this, thoughts scattered and her heart tumbling around in its own emotions.

But she doesn't try to take it back.]
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-03-28 04:25 am (UTC)(link)
["Tonight. Please. I don't want to be alone."

Lys makes tight fists of her hands, her sensible nails cutting into the meat of her palms. Is it possible to break bones this way? To keep squeezing and squeezing with blasphemous strength until her fingers shattered? She doesn't know, but for a few ugly moments, the promised pain seems almost worth it. Anything to kill these selfish impulses before they could grow from thought to action, demanding more from Annette than Lys deserved to have.

At any other time she'd be distracted by how stupid of a phrase "snug as a bug in a rug" truly was, but today it hardly registers.]


tomorrow, maybe?
if that's okay
i know it's pretty last minute
and i bet you're super busy


[She can't imagine Annette, someone so cute and sweet and wonderful and good, having much of an open schedule. Or maybe that's just her wounded subconscious talking, trying to safeguard against disappointment by preemptively assuming the worst.]
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-03-31 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
["...but even if I was busy, I would make time for you!"

Lys stares at those words for a full minute. Two minutes. Three. In her mind, so clearly that it's almost audible, she hears Anja's voice calling her a leech and a parasite, a glue trap in human form. That her big blue eyes and pathetic smile weren't good for anything except playing on another's pity—a sundew's sticky trap that lured in the tender-hearted and then digested them a piece at a time, devouring sympathy and patience and kindness until nothing remained.

She hears 6O's voice telling Lys that she loved her.

She hears Ema's voice bluntly praising her for working so hard at their lessons.

She hears Annette's voice calling her amazing, and just as smart as everyone else, and many other things.

....

Her fingers begin to move again, playing over the holographic keyboard.]


that sounds good to me
i bet anything you bake will be great
i'll handle the ice cream and games and everything else

come over whenever
and don't worry about knocking
you're always welcome, annette
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-02 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
see you



😊

[Mission accomplished...which leaves Lys with about a day and a half to kill. She has no appetite for eating or cooking, no drive to go hunting and fishing, no itch to take a strenuous hike all over the island in a bid to outpace her painful emotions. And there was no way she could sit down to meditate just yet. Settling her nerves would have to wait.

Instead Lys walks over to the coffeetable and pulls it away from the couch. Goes into the two spare bedrooms and drags out the mattresses she kept sheeted and clean for guests who never came. (“Guests” like Adora and 6O had always spent the night in her own bed, curled up in her arms.) She pushes each one into the gap, arranging and rearranging until they’re snug against each other and the base of the couch, then covers them both in blankets and pillows and the odd scavenged stuffed animal. Everything that common sense tells her would make for a cozy bed nest, until...yes. Yes, that looked about right. The mattresses were big enough to make sprawling out easy and the couch was right there in case Annette was unwilling to share. They could eat off the coffeetable without needing to get up and move or worry about falling asleep in a pile of crumbs.

It looked about right, and yet it felt strange. Would she have ever asked Annette for something like this if 6O hadn’t disappeared? Why not? Because Annette looked so much like Anja except in her eyes and the softer lines of her face, the emotions that shone out of both like warm sunlight? Or because Lys was still a coward? Content to hang in the middle, coming at life from a tilted angle, moving with the currents around her because it was easier than swimming against the tide.

…...

She ends up sleeping in the bed nest that night, breathing in the clean scents of detergent and fabric softener instead of the fading traces of 6O’s strange mix of metal and flowers. It helps. And when Annette evenually turns up, there’s a fire roaring in the fireplace and snacks laid out on the coffeetable: a bag of pretzels, a bag of chips, a gallon of ice cream left out to soften, a cakebox. Plates and bowls and cutlery and napkins. A pack of cards and a few battered board games: Scrabble, Jenga, Connect 4.

(Did she spend all her credits getting those? Who knows.)

And deep, dark hollows under her eyes, purple-black smudges like fresh bruises.]
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-16 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Halfway through setting up the Jenga tower, brow furrowed and tongue out as she concentrates on stacking up the little wooden blocks just so, Lys glances up at the sound of knocking. Heaves herself up and out of the bed nest, over to the door, opening it and...staring. Can’t seem to stop staring once Annette finishes talking and the robots finally shut up, blue eyes so wide that they fill her entire face. Her mother had always told her that staring was rude and not to do it, but Lys can’t help it. All those shiny chromium faces beaming up at her in delighted concert—Annette looking like she wanted nothing more than to dig a hole in the earth and jump inside it—the sheer absurdity of it all. So hilariously out of place in her simple home. So oddly bright and somehow refreshing, a taste of something that wasn’t heartache and insomnia and loneliness.

Lys can’t help but laugh. Deep, genuine, just a little too loud, the sound bursts out of her like water from a breaking dam, rumbling through her whole body as it rolls up from the pit of her stomach. She's breathing hard by the time she stops, wiping away tears of mirth (and nothing else, honest) from the corners of both eyes. Can’t remember the last time she’d laughed so hard, or maybe just so desperately; doesn’t care either way.]


I, uh...I mean, we appreciate the advice, but I think we know what we're doing. Right, Annette?

[She can't muster up a wink to show that she’s playing along, even a small one, but she does manage a sheepish smile. Feeling a little better—lighter, somehow cleaner—Lys walks over to the nearest robot and politely relieves them of their burden (some of the books, miraculously enough), nodding toward the living room and kitchen.]

The sooner you guys help us get settled in, though, the sooner we can get started.
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-17 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
It's fine, it's fine! I'm just glad you thought to ask for help instead of trying to carry all this stuff yourself.

[The reassurance comes easily as Lys flops back on the bed nest, tossing some of the extra blankets on the couch to spread them out more evenly. Then she snags one of the books Annette had brought, paging it open without glancing at the cover.]

Sorry for laughing, by the way. It wasn't at you. Just... [She trails off, still smiling, flipping through the book too fast to read it, wanting only to have something to do with hands while her brain scoured for the right words. Coming up empty, she shrugs and puts the book down again.] It was really funny, the way they were looking at us. I don't know how else to say it.

[And she wasn't going to admit that she'd really needed a laugh. It would just invite too many questions that Lys didn't want to answer and would feel bad for avoiding, knowing that Annette would only ask them—if she did ask them—out of kindness.]

Next time, though, I don't mind helping. If you still want to come over here, I mean.
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-20 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[Still smiling, Lys doesn't quite meet the other girl's eyes, gaze sliding away to consider the half-finished Jenga tower instead. Annette's—affection? trust? Lys settles for friendship—makes her feel better, soothes the heartache and raw nerves that 6O's sudden disappearance has left her with. But that same friendship, now more cherished than ever, perversely feels all the more fragile, like a single candle that could be snuffed out by a random wind. Not because Annette's feelings might change, but because Annette might leave. Like 6O had left...

If only there was a way to clutch that solace close without opening her heart fully to it.]


Yeah, of course. That sounds like a lot of fun. [Fingers drumming on her thighs for a moment, Lys goes back to working on the Jenga tower, stacking up the tiny blocks.] ...when is your birthday, by the way?

[Said ever so subtly. (Note: Lys is not subtle.)]
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-21 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
The ninth, huh? Mine's the sixteenth of— [translation from potato-mouthed fantasy medieval nordic incoming...] —May. Uh, that is, the fifth month of the solar year.

[Don't ask me to make up a whole-ass calendar, I won't do it, je refuse and au revoir. It's bad enough they won't be able to tell they technically share the same birth month because the Fódlan calendar has it's new year in April for some fucking reason.]

"Harpstring Moon" is a way prettier name for a month, though it's a shame we can't tell when your birthday is...maybe I can ask one of the robots about it later.

[She hums, nudging another little block into place. And says, completely innocently:]

Mine might be soon, if I've kept count right.

[This is, perhaps, a mistake.]
Edited (you can tell i'm tired because i fucked up my own oc's birthday) 2021-04-21 04:08 (UTC)
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-23 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[Putting the finishing touches on the Jenga tower, Lys makes her second mistake: looking up and meeting that bright-eyed stare, pinned by it like a butterfly to an entomology board.]

A...party? Just for one birthday? ["My birthday?" goes unsaid, obvious just the same in the exaggerated lift of her eyebrows and the questioning tilt of her head.] I’ve heard about that, but we never really did it back home. Just little get-togethers every month for everyone born in that month.

[Who would Annette even invite to such a party, anyway? There’s Ema and Kainé and Summer, Lys supposes, but that only comes out to a total of five people. Would Annette bring her own friends? Would it inconvenience them? Make them feel awkward? What would it cost Annette to throw a “proper” party?

Her hands reach out and grab the bag of chips, simply holding it instead of trying to eat any, cellophane crinkling audibly as her grip tightens in a faint show of nerves. No, she doesn’t want a party. Doesn’t need one. Like Anja has said before, counting off another year wasn’t anything for a werewolf to brag about. No real achievement, nothing special. You could even look at it as a particularly tasteless joke, a kind of blasphemy; celebrating a life that shouldn’t exist in the first place.]


I won’t tell you not to get me something if you really want to [conceded with a rueful smile] but don’t you think being my friend is already enough of a gift? ‘Cause I do.
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-25 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
[It's a good thing Lys wasn't trying to flirt, otherwise she'd be feeling more deflated than a mutilated balloon. Instead she laughs softly, nonplussed.]

You make it sound like nobody cared! We had parties, just...not personal ones, I guess.

[She doesn't mention that such a way of doing things made it possible for some of the poorer families in her village to have a celebration at all, that gathering resources for one party a month versus several was infinitely more doable when there was never very much to go around. Doesn't even think to, releasing her death grip on the chips bag to reach out and lightly touch Annette's shoulder, trying to disrupt that obvious reverie.]

But I think a party with just you and me [and the robot stripper (?)] could be really fun. You could sing me the birthday song, whatever that is, and we'll eat a whole bunch of sweets. Doesn't have to be cake.

[Speaking of cake...somewhere in all the hustle and bustle, she's gotten the plates and cutlery arranged just so, not trusting the robots to do even that much without some additional and entirely unnecessary commentary. Chips bag nestled securely in her lap—yes, she intends to eat both snacks at the same time—Lys opens the cakebox and starts divvying the chocolate cake inside into neat slices.]
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[personal profile] pawper 2021-04-26 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
Sounds good.

[She smiles back—a little tired, a little vague—offense clearly not taken. It was (cute) (adorable) oddly charming, the way Annette sometimes got so distracted by an idea that she forgot about the rest of the world, chasing it down as avidly as a squirrel after acorns. Lys takes a moment to hold that mental image clear in her mind before answering, savoring how apt the metaphor felt, then breathes out the faintest sigh of relief.

Comparisons to 6O had not intruded. Maybe tonight would be okay.]


Well, I figured we'd stuff our faces and play some games. Maybe sit in front of the fire—unless you're already feeling too warm, of course. And...maybe you could read out some of those books you brought?

[She tries (and fails) not to let herself sound too hopeful. Lys could read them herself, she's knows she could, but simply listening to the other girl's voice seemed so much nicer.]

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